Relationship Advice Gor Cheating and Disrespect

i paid attention to the consistent patterns and evidence and she checks off everything on this list a million times and blames me for cheating when she was withholding intimacy and a lack of discipline on my end lead to that.work Help pay bills been faithful over a decade yet the same thing she had denied me for years give it to the new guy within days and unprotected and has been doing so on and off for two years and when I catch her in a lie she brings up my past cheating

everything on that reel was such a eye opener it knocked the wind out of me I couldn't see it or more like didn't want to see it that's exactly how she was treating me